Committing Again

Committing to documenting our lives. Lately, the kids have been saying and doing things that I find immensely entertaining. I so badly want to remember these little gems and know I probably won't. So I decided our daily life together is too precious not to document. Since I seem to be on this computer thing and not with a journal/pen in hand--the blog wins.

So I have decided I am kind of wacky. I am always changing, changing opinions, dreams, goals,etc,etc. I am also incredibly anal about always having a plan in life. I have come to decide that this is where a lot of problems start for me. Career goals are a perfect example. For months and months, I have been obsessed with deciding what I want to be when I grow up. Yes, I do know I am rather grown up at 31. I kind of look at it as declaring a Major. Life being the university and my major being "Mommy". To be honest, this was not a major I was happy with. Always second guessing it's relevance. But you know what? I am OK with where I am heading. I value my role in our family. I actually think it is pretty dang important. I am actually helping these two little people grow and chart their own course in life. So far, I think I am doing OK. I have one little guy, with such a love for life and everyone around him. A little girl that I think will one day rule the world. She is a fierce spirit, yet so sweet and loving. I love these little people with a fierceness that I never knew existed. So yup, I think I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. With regards to my other life's ambitions. I will achieve them. So I am no longer obsessing. I feel strongly that the universe has a plan for me. I will get there.

Okay enough angst filled, dramatic ramblings. It is late and time for bed.